Station. Platform number 1. Crowded.
I’m waiting for you as the earth waits for the clouds to rain
You, perhaps, can’t notice my thirst or urge to fill myself up with your love
Announcements are being made, and I see crowds vanish into their travels
With every passing minute, with every train leaving the platform, my anxiety increases
Are you even going to come? Was I even supposed to be waiting here?
The sun has set.
Does that also mean it’s dusk for what we had?
Did I keep looking at the sun change sides and not realize it was no longer going to light up my life?
Every girl with your hairstyle, everyone with a voice like yours
Has to suffer my empty stare, hoping that they were you
I am reminded of the day you said what I wanted to hear
Should I not have listened?
Did you just mean to confess but not stay?
Why did you become my home then, pray?
Were we dancing down the aisle of our love’s funeral?
Do not, you must dare not blame me for taking the last train back home.
Even the moon was looking at me with pity, and so were some faces in the crowd
Who had seen me wait hopelessly
Who could see, that had there been trains later that night, I would have waited further
But just because you didn’t turn up, I can’t stay on the platform forever
My forever could have been with you, but you’re choosing otherwise.
I will return home the next evening
And the walls of my heart will carry the shadows of our memories
Unlike us, our memories will stay forever, and die with me
Don’t tell me you were running on the other side of the station hoping to find me in time
It’s not my fault, maybe not yours either
But I know that is how it is supposed to be
My home will never be the same, and neither will my heart
So maybe I’ll find a cage instead, or maybe an open sky
The next time I want to love someone, I won’t even try.
The next time I feel something for you, I will hate myself, my dear.
Goodbye. So much for feeling homesick in the four walls I used to call home.
Station. Platform. Empty.
Heart, filled with the footsteps of those who had been there.
